Saturday, May 26, 2007


i was in florida last weekend visiting my father and looking for a place to live. we found a great house with 2 bedrooms, 2 bathrooms, a screened-in porch and a fenced yard overlooking a creek with fruit trees. the rent was agreeable, so we went with it. my dad was funny and weird and charming and told lots of stories from when he was young and a little - let's say... criminal minded. he seemed fine. granted, he was walking slow, and showed signs of fatigue, but hell, he's got some serious shit wrong with him, so it was not unexpected. yesterday i get a call from sarasota memorial hospital advising me that he'd been admitted after taking a fall which apparently was induced by a seizure from one of the lesions in his brain. when i spoke to him he sounded like he'd had a stroke, but his doctor said it was because of the swelling in his head. his vitals were good but his kidneys weren't doing so hot, so they put him on some meds to help that. it seemed to have worked and even his white count was good. dr. singh talked about transferring him to the rehab facility on the premises in the next day or so. i was relieved since i won't be getting down there until the end of june and they wanted to keep him that long. i was out walking the dog this morning and when we got back there was a message from the hospital. dr. singh was there and told me that my father's mental status was deteriorating and he was having problems swallowing. they were transferring him not to rehab, but to the ICU. i asked him if it was critical and if i should get down there ASAP, but he told me no, that his vitals were still good and they were waiting to do another CAT scan. he knows all my numbers and will call if there are any changes.
i'm so scared that he won't make it until i get there. i mean, i'll fly down if things go bad, obviously, but i wanted him to be ok so we could spend some time together before he went. i mean, i know he's not going to come out of this, but i thought we'd have more time. he was so together just this past monday. i can't believe things can deteriorate so quickly.
all these things are scrambling around in my head like some crazy pinball game. i guess i just needed to write all of this down and get it out so i can be as effective as i can be. i've typed half a dozen things and changed my mind about leaving them - mostly they were angry,cursing things - so better to get rid of all the negative energy and ill temper to focus on the positive. ok.
i had a sweet book list and some news links too, but i've not the heart or the energy. i'm done.

leaving for florida tomorrow 11:45am.
not good.

Saturday, May 12, 2007

some news, some books, some bullsh*t

why do i keep seeing mitt romney for president commercials? isn't it a little soon for that to start? if all the potentials from both sides start their television blitz - 10 republicans, 8 democrats - there won't be any time left for regular TV!

here comes the book portion:

1. A Handbook to Luck by Cristina García
2. The End of the World as we Know it: Scenes From a Life by Robert Goolrick
3. Love in a Torn Land: Joanna of Kurdistan: The True Story of a Freedom Fighter's Escape from Iraqi Vengeance by Jean Sasson
4. War in a Time of Peace: Bush, Clinton, and the Generals by David Halberstam
5. The Occupation: War and Resistance in Iraq by Patrick Cockburn
6. Hullabaloo in the Guava Orchard by Kiran Desai
7. Animal, Vegetable, Miracle : A Year of Food Life by Barbara Kingsolver
8. Just Another Soldier : A Year on the Ground in Iraq by Jason Christopher Hartley

aaaand the news...

twenty-five years ago, F1 lost one of its greatest ever - Gilles Villeneuve.

uh-oh! between 100,000 and 300,000 barrels a day of Iraq's declared oil production over the past four years is unaccounted for.

see? even the iraqi lawmakers want us to set timetables.

some weeds make a viable alternative to oil.

a Dolores Huerta interview. she and César Chávez formed the UFW back in 1965.

france's new president takes a chapter from our president by going on vacation as violence breaks out over his being elected.

just nip the tip as an HIV prevention method. ouchie.

and finally to all those out there that celebrate Mother's Day (i am not one of them; as i have previously stated i believe EVERY day should be mother's day) estimates the (monetary) worth of a full-time mom at $138,095. good luck getting it retroactively!

i'm starting to pack up some of the things i won't use for the next several months as a start to the packing up of my life and sending it south. i think i may have a lead on a house that is affordable and will let me keep the pupster. it has a screened in porch and a garage - rare in FLA so my dad says. i'll be able to see it next saturday when i'm down there. goody. sorry, a little sarcasm slipped in.
ok, i'm done.

Saturday, May 5, 2007

news and video and a little whine with my cheese

george tenet and ron jeremy - you know you want to read it.

the NYTimes no longer plans to attend the white house correspondent’s dinner. too much jackassery.

satan's influence on immigrants? WTF?! ooohh, it's UTAH! i get it.

Oregon's governor Ted Kulongoski pretends he’s on the food stamp program. he has $21 to spend. for a week’s groceries. that's not even a lot of 33 cent cup o' soup.

jon stewart on the renaming of ‘timetables’ in Iraq. ‘perhaps patriot dates? freedom deadlines? glory goals?' he then goes on to say ‘what decent, law abiding, patriotic american wouldn’t stand behind a glory goal?” had me giggling. a lot.

It's interesting how the criticism of the war in Iraq so far has been discussed in the passive voice. "Mistakes have been made" -- no one has yet named "The Mistaker" - from The News Hole (Countdown) on how the republicans described the ‘situation’ in Iraq on last week's debate.

gladiator bones found in Turkey.

robbs dept. store (in england) bosses set off the fire alarm to get all their employees together, not because the building was on fire, but because THEY were fired.

scientists find the gene that decides how long we live.

why drug reform won’t be quick to happen even though gov. spitzer used this as a talking point in his campaign platform.

no longer the decider? now you can call him the ‘commander guy’

grindhouse style movie posters for all kinds of movies – like Casablanca!

impeach bush/cheney this didn't rate a blip in the national papers. it's pretty incredible. and cheeky, too.

this is video (10 minutes worth) of the mayday immigration protest at MacArthur Park in Los Angeles. a peaceful protest turned bloody with riot gear, huge rubber bullets and tear gas.

i'm going to florida on the 19th to check out the rental situation. my dad has been hard at work putting the feelers out and he's come up with some potentials. he goes tuesday for yet another MRI to see if the lesions in his brain have all gone. i went to dinner last night with mike and melissa to this turkish place - it was decent. the food was better than the atmosphere. we got to talking about me moving and melissa said something so obvious that i couldn't believe i hadn't thought about it sooner. thanksgiving. i won't be here to cook for, and host, the 6th annual misfits holiday dinner. that made me so sad that i was grateful the meal was over and i could get home. it hadn't even occured to me. how stupid am i? not to have thought about the holidays? this sucks.