Thursday, December 30, 2004

too tired to sleep?

i've always had problems sleeping
but these last few years have grown worse
and my dreams have started again.
i thought i had put certain things to rest,
but they've snuck into my dreams and
it's like the years never went by at all it's so fresh.
i had the dream about steve again -
it's been years since i went to his parents house
and looked in the drawer knowing i would find
the sparkly purple rock just like he said i would -
but i had the whole dream - even the worst bits -
maybe there's something going on that i don't understand yet
and i just have to wait and see - but i'm so tired
and all i want is
to sleep 3 hours in a row -
is that asking too much?

Thursday, December 9, 2004

low tide

time slipped from her slim wrist
as she lay drowning
on dry land
while corpulent clouds of acquiescence hovered
like a velvety blue blanket of exhaled smoke
to smother her protestations
long before she tried opening her mouth.

she had a gift for silence
it seemed to ebb right out of her

Saturday, December 4, 2004

snapple cap 411

i thought i had it bad:
a seal only sleeps
for a minute and a half
at a time

Friday, December 3, 2004

one shot

see what happens
when you don't let
the gates down?
one shot
even though
(you said)
not so
i knew it would be
so the rest seemed
to follow my
natural pattern
of parry and
thrust -
not the good kind
(and in the opposite direction anyway)
so here i sit
hoarding my regret
but you knew all along
(for one day)
that there was
nothing to fear
nothing to doubt

Thursday, December 2, 2004

deeply rooted

i can't eat or sleep
or think or talk
this steady loop of white noise
roars inside my head

decisions to be made
forms to fill out

i pray the words will come
and that they'll be the right ones