one shot

see what happens
when you don't let
the gates down?
one shot
even though
(you said)
not so
i knew it would be
so the rest seemed
to follow my
natural pattern
of parry and
thrust -
not the good kind
(and in the opposite direction anyway)
so here i sit
hoarding my regret
but you knew all along
(for one day)
that there was
nothing to fear
nothing to doubt